So hi and welcome, im not the best at doing journals regulary, but i usually do it on my iphone or classic with pen and paper. But i thought i wanted to share my experiences with you guys so imma start doing it here as well and ill try covering a lil bit about what is going on in my life and in my head.
First of i assume you might think whaaaat the fuck is this website even, you've probably stumbled across the descriptions of the ÖSP Project and all that.
Yeah maybe you get the idea that im very over ambitious which is daaaamn right lmao xDD Therefore it has been a bit inactive for a while. I didnt have the time to keep it all up really ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
I think it's important to talk and reflect about mental health, so im just gonna say fuck it and open up completly to you here.
Tbfh, i've been pretty burned out. I've been trying to keep up all my millions of projects (music projects, this website, organizing raves, going to raves, photography) at the same time as i've been working fucking haaard at the bike shop, continously self studying different shit, moved around stockholm every like 6th month (i fkn hate short term contracts but what to do i just joined the "bostadskö"), trying to maintain a relationship and at the same time working on my own dumb ass.
And now it has been about seven months since me and my ex gf broke up, and about 3 months since we split. Dont worry we're still friends though and i value our friendship more than gold<3 And i think it were for the better actually, i think we both needed it. I see my wrong doings clearer now and im continously trying to work on it.
Well, first of let me describe some of the problems that im dealing with:
-Im suspected to be on da mf NPF spectrum. Probably ADD but also signs of Autism. Impulsivity, hyperfixation or obsessive behaviour patterns (towards myself and certain feelings for the most part), Anxiety <-(MAJOR PROBLEM)
-Im a certified weed addict, and have annoying ass addict brain
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3d modelling of a dude by my friend Ture, Nils- Nils Ture